In Cakes, Frostings and Icings on January 1, 2012 at 9:35 pm
December evenings were made up of the type of nights that creep in, slowly dousing the world in darkness. No one notices the gradual shift in lighting until suddenly, windows no longer frame the outside world but reflect the life inside instead. White walls become stark and clinical under harsh fluorescent lighting, and edges and angles become more pronounced without natural light to soften their outlines.
New Year’s eve arrived in much the same fashion, catching me unawares. I was sitting by the fire when I decided that the year had fizzled out almost as quickly as the spilled champagne at the dinner table, and was left saddened by the realization that I could do nothing to rein it in.
But today, already living my first day of the new year, I realized that I’ll forever remember 2011. It was a recipe book of tea green frosting sandwiched between pepper biscuits, of giant cookies in celebration of a blogoversary, of yeast-raised doughs, and of ice cream. I’ve documented my year in recipes. Read the rest of this entry »
In Cakes, Chocolate on May 19, 2011 at 5:51 pm
Much has happened these past months, from celebrating my fifteenth birthday to reacquainting myself with the familiar process of spending time baking each day. Seemingly, I’ve put my blog on hold, left it to rest on the back-burner for almost two months. But sitting patiently behind the backdrop of my blog, this post has been in the works for weeks. I visited it time and again, trying in vain to put my thoughts into words. With its stitched up sentences and half-formed ideas, it was a constant source of despair to me, a reminder of how long it had been since I last posted. I got caught up in believing that it was too late to write, and the thought dragged me in, a vacuum growing with each week that flew by.
I’ve returned in hopes of waking my dormant blog and fueling it with my words and thoughts once again. I’d like to tell you that the reason to my absence is due to a lack of time, and that I’m squeezing this post in between piles of unfinished work waiting to be completed, but that would be inaccurate: as time wore on and my work load receded, I feared that my will to write had as well. Because the truth is, I was just feeling lost. I tried getting to the heart of the matter to understand why I’ve kept my distance, but even now, back and typing out a post, the true reason eludes me. Read the rest of this entry »
In Cakes on February 6, 2011 at 11:03 am
As a child, I went through phases of short-lived obsessions.
In my early years of elementary school, I spent every minute of free time playing with my sister and our neighbor, inventing fantastical adventures for our dolls. Most days we played outside, building for them houses out of rocks and leaves while they sat a safe distance away, sheltered from our dirty messes. The next morning, after a night of rainfall, our handiwork palaces would be washed away. But we would start over again, relentlessly gathering smooth twigs and perfectly round pebbles to stash away.
I picked up one of my dolls last week and ran my fingers through her tangled hair. Looking into her painted eyes, memories of my ten year old self came dislodged from the back of my head – I had forgotten they were there. Read the rest of this entry »
In Cakes, Frostings and Icings, Fruits on September 6, 2010 at 12:31 pm
I’m aware that I’ve written about it before, but school is the only thing on my mind now, day and night. I’d much rather be able to spend my last hours of vacation enjoying it, lounging in the sun with my mind cleared of homework-related thoughts, but school keeps creeping back into my mind, no matter how hard I try to chase the thoughts away. I’m still on vacation, but every hour that passes feels like the last hour of free time I’ll enjoy. Waking up in the morning I stay in bed a couple minutes longer, just to feel the warm rays of sunlight falling across the room and to hear the cheerful chirping of the birds outside. I know I won’t have that luxury when school begins. And in the evening, sitting by the warm glow of the lamp nearby, I read my book only paying half the attention I should be, secretly enjoying the fact that I have a new baking project planned the next day, and nothing to interfere with my plans. When I start school, will I have the time? I know I’m worrying, exaggerating even. But high school is new territory, and quite honestly, I’m nervous. Read the rest of this entry »
In Cakes, Daring Bakers, Frostings and Icings, Ice cream on August 28, 2010 at 8:31 am
“If only”. . . The sound of a wish in a pair of words.
It didn’t occur to me how rapidly summer is dwindling to an end until early this morning. I was on the couch, happily flipping through a cookbook, when my sister pointed it out.
“There are only 12 days of vacation left”, she had said, her voice full of dread. The filtered morning sunlight that had danced across my limbs, causing the metal on my watch to scintillate in its light, gradually faded away, leaving the room as gloomy as my thoughts. It couldn’t be. Just last week (or so it seemed), I walked home from school, my heart full with the prospects of summer. I’d left my last middle school report card lying on the dinning room table to go outside and spend some time with my friends, absorbing each and every second of the newly granted freedom I had obtained. Time must be playing with my mind. It’s passing as slowly as honey dripping off a spoon, and rushing by faster than the second hand around the clock. I tried to push the thought of school away, and enjoy the cookbook in my hands. If only we had more time, more vacation. Read the rest of this entry »
In Cakes, Daring Bakers, Ice cream on July 27, 2010 at 6:23 pm
As I sit here at the computer typing this month’s Daring Baker’s post, my ice cream cakes have not yet been assembled, and my ice cream maker has just finished churning out a batch of lemon ice cream. I’ve had 2 failed attempts at making a swiss roll, and used up the last bit of parchment paper, which I realize I badly need. I’m running late this July.
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